The ghosts of my past
Still haunt me today
I wish I could be strong
And throw them away
But it's not that easy
To simply be mean
For what has happened
Can't just be unseen
I must accept that it's over
And move forward with that
But it's harder then it seams
To just go flat
To pretend I'm ok
And that I don't care
And live on each day
As if the thoughts arnt there
I don't ask u to understand
But just be slow
For I can't move as fast
As everyone else you know
What seems simple to you
Is a hard task for me
It's as if I wake up
And can barley see
For the thoughts cloud my mind
And take over my day
I wish it was easy
To just run away
All I can ask
Is for you to see
How hard I try
To simply be me
But my past has forced me
To loose sight of who I am
And trying to find me
Is like being stuck in a jam
I don't know what
Way to take
Or what to choose
In fear of mistakes
I want to do good
And make you believe
I am so strong
And I can achieve
I'm a survivor
But it's hard you know
For every where I turn
I see my foe
Sometimes I think
My foe is simply me
And that makes it so much harder
To try and break free
For the chains of my past
Have a hard grip
And my mind and heart
They do tug and rip
For if I could
Just turn away
I would turn to the light
Of a new way
Where I could be free
To be what I want
To run and play
And not have haunt
To be able to laugh
And smile so true
And not cry every night
Because I'm so blue
I don't wish to set blame
I just wish you to simply see
How hard it is
To try and be me.