It was in his arms I shed every tear.
It was for him that I could look forward to tomorrow, wishing for something better than yesterday or today.
It was for him that I chose to stay, so that he wouldn't suffer alone.
When did sorrow overshadow my happiness?
When did life become so dull?
Was it this so called love that took the smile off my face?
Was it this so called relationship that took me away from my family?
Was it this relationship that stripped away my innocence?
I know it is wrong to keep fighting for him but I don't want to picture tomorrow without him.
No matter how many times he yells for me to go away,
No matter how many times he leaves me crying alone.
I can't walk away because who else will fight for him like I did?
Who else will love him like I do?
But is love supposed to feel so painful?
Am I supposed to feel this numb?
When did love become a curse rather than a blessing?
I can't understand how you hurting me feels numbing.
It's almost like you took away all the feeling from my body.
The memories we have feel like nightmares.
When did we become nothing?
I can't even remember a day where you were never angry,
But I still love you . . .
I guess this is what's making crazy.