I sit here
and I am scared
to the point of breaking down
to the point of wanting to disappear
to the point of wanting to go unnoticed
like the dewdrops on the leaves in the morning
i am scared
of failure
of letting people down
of being the person that you don't want.
I lay here
with these thoughts
thoughts that haunt my dreams
and all of my waking hours
being shrouded in the darkness that
is slowly consuming my mind
stuck in my head
of having
to pretend
to be someone that i can never be.
I stand here
surrounded by
fake friendships from those
who really couldn't care less
who crush my dreams but act like
everything is fine and that nothing has changed
these people
who act
like they care
but all of them just want something from me
I am done
with acting like
someone who I am not
the perfect picture of society
to the point where i have lost myself
and drowned in the mainstream of life
like someone else
just so i
can please
all of these people who bring me down.
I am done