Do you ever wonder how long your going to live or when you'll die? One moment you think you'll live forever and the next you think that because you cry, that your time is coming much much sooner than you thought. Most nights you lay in bed and wonder why you go through what you do. You think of how happy your life is until that one person says one thing to make you think some things through. You think all day until night suddenly comes, you lay i your bed for hours wondering how you could be so dumb. Little things like that can make you think you want death, like there's no point in living because no matter how happy you are it never laasts. Some people are strong and dig out of that great depth, and they find a way to be happy for one day... Like a temporary cast. They think that the cast will fix them and sometimes it seems like it did but that cast was just an illusion. You see it wasn' a cast it was more like pain medication. They hurt every night and take their medication as they sleep so that the pain will go away for maybe a day or a week. They do that over and over again just to stay happy and those are the people you see just aas plainly as you and me. Then there's the not as strong people that you don't see as much because they were the ones that discovered how long they would live and how they would die because they decided that for themselves and they took their own life. All these people whether strong or not try with all their might just to be happy and live in the light. But you see the light is flickering so even when you do make it there it will eventually disappear.. and then you have to start your search all over again. But don't quit yet because even in your ups and downs you truly can be.... HAPPY.