Running
Running away from it all

Avoiding
Avoiding the obstacles

Running in circles

Telling lies

Trying to protect myself

From invisible problems

I feel them

Inside of me

Eating away everything I've ever known

Living a lie

Smiling like it never rains

Smiling through the rain

Saying its all ok

It's not

So why do we lie

To protect.

I won't say what.

I feel it all falling apart.

My pieces are losing themselves.

Actually no.

I'm dropping pieces of myself.

Replacing them with lies.

Hoping someone will walk behind

And collect me.

Put me back together.

I'll never be put together right again.

Because some of me disappears.

Into thin air
Like smoke

Where'd I go

Why'd I do this to myself

Scars hurt more when you can't see them

But it doesn't release anything

It's all bottled

Hiding behind a mirror

You can reflect on it

But can't change what's really going on

People don't realize

You can't just stop

You can't just change

You've lost it

Something you can't gain

Something that's hard to change

Sometimes it's not so easy

Sometimes you wanna give up

But you can't

You'll starve yourself

Of satisfying other people

To keep them happy

You give them something you can't really spare

The life you wanted to live

So you live a different story

And seek something you will never find

The answers to why you treat you that way

You're looking for you

But you're gone

And don't know where you lost yourself

You can't gain back the you
You used to know

Because that you is gone

Running away
Lying
Pretending

Avoiding