One; I don't want to remember the days
Two; I still remember the days
Three; You soothed my aching pride, you pressed cool fingertips to burning skin, you stretched me out between your hands and examined every tear, fault and crack
Four; I was swimming in your smile when it happened, you pushed me down, every word that you whispered held no meaning but it held weight. You wrapped lies like chains around me and you let me sink to the bottom.
Five; You made me trust you, said I was pure, said it was fine, said it was for my own protection. I was drowning in your smile when it happened.
Six; You always liked sad girls.
Seven; When you left I wondered why, you see I figured I could keep you at least until you had fixed me, I figured I had time to make you stay and when I wondered why you were leaving me unfinished, you said I didn't fit in, you said I wasn't your type of sadness.
Eight; like I'm a test everyone failed. A test no one really cared enough about to pass.
Nine; you always liked sad girls but you didn't like me.
Ten; Your eyes have a little green in them.
Ten; I swear they glittered.
Ten; I swear they laughed.
Ten; I swear they whispered I love you as you stabbed me in the back.
Ten; I can't count when you're in my head, numbers don’t mean anything when I think of you
Ten; go away
Ten; I hate you
Ten; I love you
Ten; I miss you
Ten; we are too young to be whispering anything to anyone, you said, why do you hate me so much. You see, I tore every last memory of you out of my head, and yes most of my brain came with it. Why do I hate you so much? You see, at night sometimes your voice crawls into my head through my ears. It settles itself at the centre of me and it digs its nails in and I don’t think it has let go since.

One; this is for every life you have ruined.
Two; this is for every guilty kiss you stole.
Three; this is for every time you called me pure, every time you stretched me out and examined my breaking points, this is for the first time you unveiled your eyes like curtains on opening night and picked me out as your target.
Four; I’m not anyone’s target, I’m not in the wrong here, I’m not a bad person, this isn’t my fault
Five; so why do I feel so guilty?
Six; My jaw dropped when I first saw you
Seven; You are prettiest at dawn
Eight; why do beautiful faces happen to bad people
Nine; I hope you never hear this, I hope you never look at me again, I hope you find a girl who isn’t broken and I hope she breaks you.
Ten; I loved the way you said my name, it sounded a little like a musical. I hated when you cried, but that sounded like a musical too. I guess that’s why I always associated myself with crying like sad people were born sad.
Ten; My jaw never healed
Ten; I shine brightest
Ten; When you're not around
Ten; there are so many reasons to hate you
Ten; but I dont