You don't go through the decisions I make
Your suffocating with me pressure
In this death of a lake
This is my life
I make my choices
The knife in my head clears out all the voices
That tell me to do this and that
That tell me to go this way and back
I'm having these anxiety attacks
I'm passing out, all is see is black
With control of my anger, its hardly attached
So many thoughts in my head
So many memories in my brain
I'm glad no one is dead
From me going insane
I want to burst out, yell, scream & cry
Till I curse out that I want to go bleed and die
These moments are mostly
These opponents
They're shallow, they torment
That's why I hide in the shadows
Than to be struck by these hornets
I live long, I breathe
I snap but I heave
Through the emotions
That I soon to leave
Because I can't take the smell of their breath
The wine, liquor, and weed
The spit that lands on my skin
That spit turns into a seed
It goes through my veins
Into my blood
Its the end of days
As soon as I hit the mud
And I can't receive help, I'm trapped
I'll have to stay here and adapt
I have to stay calm & to not attack
But how long can I live?
How long will I decide to stay?
When will I snap?