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All That Holds.

July 7, 2013
By tori-gurl PLATINUM, Norwich, New York
tori-gurl PLATINUM, Norwich, New York
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smile through everything no matter how bad it gets because it could be worse and if it gets worse well then it can only get better. :)


I feel uncontrollably empty inside
So I deny
Food.
I have control over that emptiness
I have control over that wrenching pain
I have control over that.
I have control.
I have…
Nothing.
At least not on the inside
On the outside I have everything
But everything I have, I hide.
My intricate map of self-destruction
Lies,
Lies under my tight long sleeves or gloves.
Because of the lie of love
The begging question of will I ever be enough?
How can you ever be enough when you weigh in 90 pounds?
Especially when half of that weight is from gravity holding you to the ground
It’s all that holds you.
Aside from the glue I have placed between your bones.
I thought you needed some sense of structure
Perhaps you don’t remember
Or maybe you cut that away too.


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October 26th, 2012

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on Sep. 1 2013 at 6:33 pm
tori-gurl PLATINUM, Norwich, New York
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smile through everything no matter how bad it gets because it could be worse and if it gets worse well then it can only get better. :)

Thanks and I am headed to see some of your work now :) ss.Heart  

on Aug. 23 2013 at 5:22 pm
ss.Heart SILVER, San Jose, California
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You try you fail,you try you fail, but the only true failure is when you stop trying.

nicely worded i'm reading your work and it is very diverse,please check out my work as well i am new to this site and could use a little support! :)

on Aug. 14 2013 at 6:51 pm
tori-gurl PLATINUM, Norwich, New York
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smile through everything no matter how bad it gets because it could be worse and if it gets worse well then it can only get better. :)

Thanks! :D I think it is important to write about these types of issues and bring attention to them so others can understand a little bit better what some people go through.

on Aug. 11 2013 at 11:39 am
MissExploration BRONZE, Vancouver, Washington
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It Can Only Fly When It Needs To.

Great description of what can create an eating disorder and what happens from it.