Every step is a fight to live. When your dreams are ripped from you all that pain that you said you would never feel rushes back into your veins like a poison... that one little fall that takes you so down. You think you'll never get up look up to the sky thinking…what it’s all for if I try so hard and don’t reap the rewards.
I do it for myself not for you. You start to forget that when your fist is on your chest and you think your dying. If death not now you'll take care of it later. I will not wait for some force to choose my fate.
You need to breath oh yep I forgot about that. Every breath being like a dagger wish you could leave this world and not feel everything at once. Wish you could leave this world and not be called selfish for thinking about yourself. I need to get up run till I can’t remember, but that’s hard when the things you call legs won’t even move.
It’s like staring at yourself getting f***ed by society and you can’t do anything. You scream at yourself to move but you have a better chance resurrecting the dead. You son of a b**** you promised these salty waves of emotions would never over fill and pour over. Don’t you dare feel sorry for yourself you made it this far.
Have faith in the spirit that’s never left you… I do though I don’t have faith in the system that promised it would never fail me if I tried hard enough. Maybe you write so there is something when you’re gone, or maybe you right because if you don’t all the things you’re feeling will be conflicted on you threw your own hands.
All the greats were once not understood. You try to keep your head up and all that shame shifts your gaze to the floor. Their no better and at one point or another you’re past self was where you are now. If you don’t make it out of this war with yourself, than all that work was for nothing. You’re going to make it like you’ve always made it.
Those past years when you thought that night you’re going to end it and leave this worldly pain. Forgot your faith so much that you were sure all you would be at was peace. Close your eyes once in a while stop and shut the world off. Let the tears roll off that young face, which has so much years to fail and come back victorious. You’re not weak because you let yourself feel emotions you’re weak if you don’t come back even stronger from those feelings.