My life is a whirlpool,
I’m going in deep,
The light is disappearing beneath my feet.
I’m trying to hold on tight,
But the future I cannot see.
Everything is disappearing, including me.
The past once was present,
But now is an empty vase.
Some days I wish that weren’t the case.
What was once mine,
Well it is now gone.
And there is nothing to see beyond.
Is my death soon near?
For what people see,
Is what I make them see in me.
There once was a girl,
She had a smile so bright,
To go against the world was her fight.
But sometimes the world is bigger than you.
It will eventually break you down,
Make you cry without a sound,
Because there were those who looked up to you.
The price of failure is far too great,
Sent to hell, a place of much hate.
The funny thing is that you don’t know when you changed.
Was there a que,
That signaled the change in you?
Was there words that were said?
Or maybe there was a time,
When everything was not fine,
That it broke your heart in two.
It allowed you to hate,
Unknowingly choosing your fate.
The words in your head screaming,
“I NEVER WANTED TO BE THIS WAY!”
But you do, day by day.
You hate being this angry,
Mad,
And sad.
You miss being happy,
Being love,
Especially by the Father above.
Even though you know he has not forgotten you.
You know life has its ups and downs.
You know you will cry and frown.
But it will all be okay.
For one day this will all end,
And then you will be able to comprehend,
The plan God meant for you to fulfill.