I’ve been asleep for a while now
and I don’t remember how to wake myself up
I’m stuck in this trance
I’m stuck asleep
and nothing seems to wake me up.
Not the freezing company of the ocean’s waves
or the occurrence of a blazing fire
not the chaos of New York city
or the center of a crowded concert
not a handful of pills
or a mouthful of alcohol

I don’t feel alive like I use to
I don’t feel well
and the things that use to entertain me
don’t feel the same at all

Not the words of my favorite song
or the calmness in the wind’s breeze
the comfort of friend’s encouragement
the thought for better days
the innocence of my family
or the luxury of pure silence

I want to feel the way I did back then
I want to feel different
I want to smile the way I did
for the reasons I had
I want to wake up
to feel alive.