Ah,

I shall begin with sorry.

It probably means nothing,

But mommy,

You need it.

The way I hurt you,

How you cried and cried,

And I just laughed.



Like a clown hidden behind a mask,

With a smile played across its lips.

Trying to cover up the despair,

That I have caused upon you.

I can not bear it anymore,

I regret not saying stop.

Please don’t harm yourself,

I don’t mean those awful words,

I’m young,

I get angry.

I yell, I scream.



Everyday,

I hurt you.

Something I’ll never forget,

Especially the day you got ill.

Like bugs crawling in my skin,

My body cries out in pain.

The memories are getting sore,

I guess I should tell you,

I regret,

Not loving you,

The way you deserved.