Life is just a multitude of mishaps perfectly planned out. So I discovered. This life we so desperately try to control, we feel we control, but have no control over, predetermined even before we are a mere thought in the mind of our predecessor, our creator, our source. Many threads have been cut, and tied, some doubled-knotted, to place us where we find ourselves, whether it be laying in a bed far from home trying to write you the meaning of life, missing you, or it be you at home wanting to grow up so fast, waiting for your life to start, to leave, to get away. I’m right alongside of you, standing in the slow-paced line to the exit. I want to leave so badly, but it isn't time to grow up yet. My threads will pull me where they will, as will yours. And we have no control over where they will take us; it is an adventure, what life is. Sometimes it’s painfully slow, but then at the same time it hurts because it goes by so fast. And that’s what we want, right? Sometimes, but then sometimes I want moments to linger, and they will, but they will grow thinner in the back of our minds as moments fade into memories. They will slip through your fingers if you aren't careful. And I’m sorry, I don’t exactly know what I’m sorry for, but I just know that I am. I just wanted you to know that you are so important to me; I think it’s because we understand the nature of each other; we are made up of a different color. I think you can see it too. But these coincidences only appear as coincidences, because thousands of years ago, our threads crossed, maybe even double-knotted. And who knows what will happen in the future? But who even gives a f***, there isn't anything to worry about, we never lost control because we never had it. We are just beings following a predestined path, and as scary as it sounds, I find comfort in knowing that when I think I end up where I shouldn't be, I know that it is exactly where I need to be, and that there is always a thread that will lead me back home. And in this moment, home is with you, and with our late nights of movies, and reading love stories, and talking about our dreams, and all of the crazy s*** that we've done and will do, that is where I want to be. Not focused on the moments that already faded into memories.