The memories you tried not to forget.
The promises you wished you'd kept.
The words unsaid.
The blood you've bled.
The thoughts that leap inside your head
It's mystifying
Stupefying
I feel like crying
When I think of that darkness lurking
Always irking
With a word of doubt
The pool of things that should have been
Is over flowing,
Caving in
I want to dive into those lies
Never to return again
That's what I deserve?
What I've been waiting for, trying to curb
That feeling of wretchedness
Darkness within
With the secrets I'm keeping, I've got to give in.
Falling over "If only I had…"
Spiraling past "If I could take it back…"
I'm buried deep in who I am.
Something alien, dim, and oh so sad