You’d never know by looking at me that I do worry what others think.
I’m actually not the overly confident person I convey;
the comments and whispers do have an effect on me.
Every aspect of my life may seem great
but there are always details about myself that bother me
and keep me up at night thinking.

I have my moments when the simplest things become too much
and I just need to be alone
to let me emotions run free.
I’ve always had the tendency to make an effort to be the strongest,
sometimes to make up for others’ inability to keep moving forward.
Regardless of the situation,
I’ve always wanted to be the strong one
and show some kind of strength

There are times when my will to be indifferent deteriorates and I need to break down.
Holding it in and putting up a strong front
becomes a lot to deal with over time.

I am passionate about many
My inability to show every little emotion
Sets me back constantly
And makes me come off cold and insensitive
When in reality I am solely concerned of other’s view of me

I’ve learned a lot about myself that you wouldn’t know
I am capable of more than I let myself take credit for
I’ve learned that it’s okay to be vulnerable sometimes
And let others see that not everything slides right off

I am learning to except that there are people who will support me
When I need them there during my weakness
What you wouldn’t know is that I’m working on myself every day