I can’t trust my heart or my brain
They seem to always play this crazy game
One wanting truth the other wanting love
Try hard for goals but, not trying to seem like a try hard
Can I ever really be wrong when I ever really knew if I was right?
No one can ever take the blame when we’re all just ignoring the signs
Forgive me for thinking it was only me
Expectations never come true just like your sweet buttercream words
So smooth off the lips easy for me to devour
You kept me close you kept me far
I was trying to stare you clear from my heart
Then bam with one hit, and crush there you landed
There I laid in your bed
Your words replaying in my head
Did you mean it even a little?
Or were you just thinking of her
I saw you walking tall with pride, as I stood from the side
You got what you wanted your most precious prize
The look you gave her in her eyes I’ll remember thousand times
Am I even allowed to feel this low if you were never even mine?
Was it crazy that I stayed waiting for that moment to be us?
Its hard to be free now when my sky just isn’t clear
Polluted with empty words and unheard cries
But I guess thats my story
Thats my life hoping for forever but just gets shot down with never
I can’t trust my heart or my brain
They seem to always play this crazy game.