Hand full after hand full

The pills I swill around my dry mouth

The doctors say they will

Stop

The urge to repeat

Bullet after bullet of forgiveness for my sins

I choked down

With death the only sound on my lips

I let them burn the words from my throat

I let eat my pain away

I let them take

But they only took away the trust hearts held for me

They only took away respect for my own life

They only took away my time

I wanted to never remember

And now I can never forget

Your eyes

Your fingers leaving trails of pins and needles

On my cold olive skin

Your heartbeat so close to mine

Composing an offbeat sonata dedicated to lovers everywhere

I will always remember

The looks

The words

You shot my way that day

I was not prepared for the war we waged

Hit after hit until it was too much

You sunk my battleship

My only consolation was the faucet and bottle

A waterfall of ice

Sweet red packages promising death

These were a few of my favorite things

The world began to spin

Teh wrldo geban ot pisn…

Wrheld..obegaot.npnsi…

You never blinked at my overflowing pain

Barb after barb flew my way

Too much

Too much

More water

More pills

More pain

Hoping for an end

Darkness

And I woke to this

To these never ending memories

To this