You don't know
What its like
To have no more friends
to have someone you love the most
tell you to go to hell
to have everyone you care about
turn against you in a second

you don't know what it's like
to feel so alone
to have not a friend of your own
to listen to your screams of pain


as if you knew how it hurts
to be kicked when you fall down
to cry yourself to sleep
every single night of your life
because no one cares,


no one knows
what they are doing to you
when they take their anger out on you

you can't imagine the difficulty
with holding it in
ever tried to build a ship in a bottle?
hard right?
try forcing every ounce of pain in there

let it build up, then try to plug the cork in it
send it out to sea,
it won't float
too much pain
the weight too much

it sinks, buried deep in the ocean of grief
you keep pushing to the breaking point
because you are too afraid to show your pain,
your weakness

i can't imagine you know how it feels
to have to hold in
everything that kills you inside