It’s hard to miss something you’ve never had
But it goes along with not having a dad
I’ve lost all respect
But what can a person except when he was never there

As a child I thought it was unfair and misunderstood
I’d wonder what I did wrong to make him leave
Because he never was a part of me

When I got older I found him
And realized it was a mistake
Because the bruises and scars that he
Left on me will never go away

The sad thing is, I kept going back
I gave him chance after chance
But nothing ever changed

Now I’m 17 going on 18 and I’ve
learned that my dad ran out of chances
a long time ago. He could have had a
place in my heart, but all he’s done
is tear it apart.
I just hope that when I get older and leave HS, go onto college and have a career and family.
I hope I can look back and say he’s the one that missed out.
I hope he feels bad about not being there when Grandpa died. And when he wasn’t there to protect me from the babysitter down the street when I was ten.
And the end of the day I hope I have plenty of other people backing me up that have been there with me through it all.
Because I’ve made it through all of this standing on my own two feet. And I’ve grown up in so many ways.
And at the end I hope he looks back and regrets hurting me and never having a place in my heart.
Because the only good thing that came of this was that I learned how to become a stronger person

Because it takes a man to be a father,
So dad, don’t even bother