It’s all becoming real
I’m wondering if when it’s done if my heart will heal
What scares me most
Is the date is drawing close

Only a few know
I’m one of them with the haunting shadow
These secrets might suffocate me
And make it hard to breathe

Nobody will suspect anything
Nobody will know your hanging by a string
If I keep a straight happy smile
maybe, just maybe I’ll survive this trial

Who knew I was so strong inside
You have to be when two opposites collide
And you hear their voices ring through the house
Do you still call one another a spouse

I still paint the pretty pictures in my mind
But I know those pictures are left behind
Just like every hug and kiss
For some reason I wish they still exist

I got a tight grip on reality
This saves a lot of brutality
A heart can only break so much
So it’s the memories I try not to clutch

It’s complicated from here
It’s holding back of every tear
It’s silently killing
And everyone is falling in even though everyone is unwilling