Long sleeves will be worn, with my heart torn
Because I can’t let people see
These marks of betrayal etched on my skin
Welts left hastily

When I want to give in, and slice through my skin
I settle for my rubber band
Because it’s the closest thing I can feel to pain
As I snap it from my hand

It stings at first, but I embrace this hurt
To give me a reason to cry
Because I just can’t find a real reason
No matter how hard I try

So I’ll snap my band, as I try to stand
In this storm that just won’t pass
And then I’ll let my rubber band fly
Left wondering how long this will last

I’ll wear my longs sleeves, and try to breathe
And try to hush what I really need
A nice cut flowing blood
Down the drain left from my knee

The marks are here, without the tears
And I’ll run to hide my shame
And I’ll keep snapping this old rubber band
Convincing myself it gives enough pain