Why do I let myself live like this?
Same old habit of forced smile
Keep building up my walls.
I’m crying here in pain
But nobody gets past my game
I’m living with my shame
One mistake and life became
Nothing more than survival
Do I let it show?
Does anybody know?
I am begging you to come
I’ve become so numb
Someone please reach out
Reach past my screaming doubts
Prove to me I’m wrong
Show me I belong
I’m sick of crying out this song
I’m running out of strength
But I still hold you at arm’s length
Please just hold me tight
Before I give up and break
How long will this take
My life is a mistake
I don’t want to be a fake
But I still question my existence
God don’t let me go
Cause each day is another blow
Another reminder of the choices of long ago
My breath is running out
Is this all life is about?
The light is slowly waning
You have taken everything away
There is not much of me remaining…