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What am I if not a Dreamer?

February 14, 2010
By Onthemove BRONZE, Laquey, Missouri
Onthemove BRONZE, Laquey, Missouri
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Favorite Quote:
~A successful person is a dreamer that someone believed in~
~Life is what you make it. Always has been. Always will.~


What am I if not a dreamer?
What am I if not Your child?
Who am I when I feel broken?
Shattered dreams lie in the dust.
What am I if not a dreamer?

I know I’m the one to blame.
No one else could do a thing.
I did it all, but no one stopped me.
I messed me up and now I’m through.
I know I’m the one to blame.

I hate this feeling of emptiness.
I feel lost and worthless.
What do I do now?
I turn to You, but do You hear me?
I hate this feeling of emptiness.

I want Your dreams for my life.
My own dreams are in pieces now.
I slowly crushed them into dust.
I see no hope to bring them back.
I want Your dreams for my life.

How do I learn to dream again?
I desperately want to know.
Please show me how to feel forgiven.
I bow down and ask You now –
How do I learn to dream again?

I know I’m not worthy.
I don’t deserve Your love.
You are all knowing, all powerful,
Ever present, ever loving.
I know I’m not worthy of you.

You sent Your Son to die for me.
How did You stand to watch him die?
As we beat him and nailed him
As my sins held him up there…
You sent Your Son to die for me.

I still don’t understand.
You love me, I can see.
So I ask You now, I just wonder how –
How am I supposed to dream?
I still don’t understand.

Through pain and grief, You say?
Isn’t there an easier way?
I hate this hurt, this burning ache.
I want to live for You, and how?
Through pain and grief, You say?

God, give me the strength for today.
I can’t see past this minute.
I am drowning in myself.
Pull me up and pull me out.
God, give me the strength for today.

Guide me, Lord, direct me.
Lead me to the right people.
The right places, the right times
I’m begging You, cause I feel blind –
Guide me, Lord, direct me.

Maybe someday I will see.
What You had in mind
When You said my name at the beginning of time.
And how to dream anew.
Maybe someday I will see.

What am I if not a dreamer?
What am I if not Your child?
You pick me up when I am broken.
Restore my dreams and give them life.
What am I if not a dreamer?


The author's comments:
I'm going through a rough time in my life right now. And no, I'm not just trying to get attention. I just wanted to write down all what I was feeling. When I was done, I kinda liked how it turned out. So, here you go.

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