Prologue

When a dream never ends

When life feels like a dream

A door may open

To insanity or stability

Fireworks

You light me up like fireworks

I hear your gentle whispers when I close my eyes

Every time I dream of you

I feel like the match that lights the Fourth of July

When I have your sparklers and Fire crackers

I know it won’t last

Yet I’m glued to you, a puppy in your presence

Once the light show stops

You smell of old smoke

Like a ghost in the wind of a warm summer night

Your fire has died out

The firework night of july is over

I need to let go

No more weak sparklers

No more fireworks

Only smoky, solemn air

Monster Heart

I want to love

I want to love you

But then I hear the claws

And the wicked howls

And the haunting little clicks

It follows me

I don’t know why

It smells like pickled sardines

Wet dog, and deer carcass

It’s bigger than redwoods

Or the Loch Ness monster

Or whatever fake paperback

Monster

People dream about

This one is real

I feel it

Trying to sink it’s alien teeth into my skin

Corroding my muscles with poison spit

It’s cold to touch

But it’s hot breath is right at my neck

I’m sick of being chased

Being hunted down

Like a lamb to the slaughter

All I get is blood and death

And a kiss or two

Red and Blue

I have two friends

One wears red, the other wears blue

They scream like banshees

Manners like crazed zoo animals

Red shakes her head

Sways her hips

And calls Blue pathetic and crude

Blue shies away like a scared dog

He shifts and sighs

At night he cries

I don’t like having either of them around

With them I feel like rusty copper

A never-ending, pounding headache

Constant, slow dripping dread

They love being close to me

Trailing me like desperate kids

But they pull me this way and that

Till I rip

With them, I’m as frail as wet paper

And I can’t stand either of them

Rain

I’m stuck in my bed

Glued to the cold sheets

Staring at snow white ceilings

The windows watching

Lightning’s gentle light

Screams

Where are you?

Where did you go?

Hearing soft sharp drips of rain

No-

Just tears

Just crying

But I’m fine, I’m ok

The Echo

All I hear is echoes

Whispers in my head

They snicker mechanically

“You’re better off dead”

All I hear is echoes

I see them from the corner of my eye

I turn to look, no one there

Maybe I should go blind

All I hear is echoes

The voices yell and scratch

They beg to be let out

Only for a second, with doubt

All I hear is echoes

They all say I’m next

A sharp glass of steel in one hand

An Alice in wonderland drink in the next

All I hear is echoes

And I finally know why

I tell them to leave

They simply laugh and humiliate me!

All I hear is echoes

I think they’re the men

I see their dancing shadows

I hear the soft footsteps

All over, all around, in the walls, in the ground!

Or maybe it’s happening again?

All I hear is echoes

And they never go away

I’m a slave to my mind

A lingering scent of desperation

In a body no longer mine, simply just a mime.

Epilogue

Wake up

Open your eyes

You tossed and turned

Are you feeling alright?