staying up all night, just laying in bed,

listening to all these voices in my head

hear them scream, and hear them whisper

looking at all the light, watch it flicker

watch it go out without a fight

like everything else, it took to the sky

can't tell the difference between wrong and right

instead of speaking my mind, I keep it bottled up and write

feel that my mind is in chains, behind bars,

too dark to see the light, to see the stars

want a new life, but I don't know where to start

want to leave this pain behind, rip out my heart

want to keep on pushing, but I don't know where I'm going

too scared to think, with all the thoughts that have been growing

too scared by this pain that's been showing

too hurt by my mind that left me on the floor with my blood flowing

I want it stop, just want it to end,

you say you were there for me, but you were never my friend

you watched as my sanity was ripped to pieces,

watched as it was spilt, now its gone, it ceases to exist

I'm nothing, invisible and invincible

you can try to get rid of me, but now I'm indispensable,

irreplaceable,

yet somehow still incapable,

of showing feelings, showing my thoughts

because I'm too used to the pain that I've brought

the mind that I had, doesn't work, it stopped

there's no more ideas to be had, no more emotions to be caught

no more smiles to be worn, and no more tears to be shed

no more wondering if I was better off dead

no more exhaustion, no more rest

no more thinking, no more quizzes, no more tests

cause now it's all over, I don't hear the voices

and I don't have to deal with the choices

I used to be happy, and used to be satisfied

but now I'm living a life where I've already died