I don't speak the same language as them

I can't understand my aunties, my cousins, my grandparents when they speak

I’ve always wished I could

I tell myself I know who I am

I know who I am, I know what I will have to face

And I know what I have faced

But I never believe in those words

I don't believe it when I read the articles about situations

Situations that I am not allowed to fix

I don't believe it when I’m not allowed to speak

It’s like a game of taboo

Don’t say the wrong words 

It’s your job to help them understand 

And I know

I will have to explain it a hundred more times

And I know

I know I will never face the same struggles

I know I wont ever really be able to understand

What it's like to lose everything

To lose your home and life

Because even if I spoke the language

The barrier is still there

A barrier like that will never break down

When I face challenges like the ones they face

I almost feel grateful

For the opportunity to prove myself as someone

even if i’m already that someone

To prove myself as enough

But looking back the memories just hurt

So I learned to understand 

I learned face what they face and more

I learned face what they face and less

Because even though I will never understand everything they go through

Doesn’t mean I don't understand anything at all