Do you know how it felt

When every inside joke went over my head

Did you see the hurt flash across my face

Or did you just see the laugh

The smile that didn't quite reach my eyes

I noticed 

When I was no longer a priority

When what I cared about was an afterthought

Never brought up 

Unless it was the source of a joke 

I noticed

Every time the subject changed 

As soon as I walked in the room

Every time a long-awaited response was

Sorry, I meant to text you back 

That I wasn't good enough for you  

I watched as you molded yourselves to fit in

Little changes eventually adding up

Other people taking the forefront of your mind

I felt the joy we once had

Turn into watching every word

Trying so hard to not make a mistake

Not to say something that could embarrass me

Or more importantly

Embarrass you