I awake in night

2:27 am

I awake in morning

I open and close my eyes

Trying to escape reality once more

I'm awake fully

I toss, twist, and turn

Trying to regain comfortability

I lie there, awake

We've been here before

Do I want this again?

To be up thinking about the pain in my head

No, so I stand

Maybe too quickly, so I sit

I stand again

I stand for a while

No ability to move or do anything

Head tilted towards the floor

I look forward

Dizziness overtakes me

My ears begin to ring

Darkness

Maybe I'm asleep and that's all I see

Or maybe I'm awake and that's all I be 

Darkness

It fades and I gaze the blue gold haze of night

But it's not night, it's morning

Mixed with the sounds of wind against the trees

Cars driving back and forth because it's not night, it's morning

A certain silence void of others

I'm awake in morning

But not the way I'd hope

So, I'm awake in night