I was not made to be beautiful

I am not broken nor breakable

I am simply a girl fighting a battle I didn’t know how to fight

A battle that consumed every day of my life until I had nothing left.

But I won’t let my eating disorder define me

Because that’s not who I am

And that’s not who I want to be

I may be figuring out who I am but I know what I’m not

I’m not judgy

I’m not weak

I’m not selfish

And I am not my eating disorder.

I am whoever I want to be

And I want to be a girl who goes after what she wants

A girl who stands up for herself and others

A girl who doesn’t care about the way her pants fit or how others view her body

Because that’s the real me.

Someone who is compassionate

And strong

And freaking awesome!

So I am going to take that step into recovery

Because I want to get better

I want to discover who I really am

Beyond the numbers.