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Fire Hazard
I sit wading in the ashes, crumbling
what once was through my fingertips. How
did it get this way – it feels like just yesterday we snuck
into our parent’s pantry and stuck
silver skewers through the stale
cupboard marshmallows. Me on lookout, you
igniting a jarring clicking from the stovetop knob, we lit
the back kitchen counter ablaze. I knew this was our
first golden-brown moment as the make-shift bonfire
sparked anticipation in our
eyes; I kept my stick a cautious
distance from the flicker. You plunged
yours right in. This is going to go up in flames you taunted – but
I was going more for toasted. It really does feel like yesterday,
I was a roaring extinguisher. My foot anchored on your back, your amber
eyes begged me from the carpet floor for mercy. I grinned
as you screamed for mom to save you. But instead, she erupted
with an aching frustration I could trace
to her grasp full of your
doctor’s appointments notes. I could have sworn
it was just yesterday when I caught
a cold as chilly as the clouds outside, shivering
in bundles of blankets. But there you stood,
leaning in my doorframe – bearing a grin that said half
I’m sorry, half have fun – I would have tackled you
had I been able to sit up. But instead, you
shuffled to the side of my bed and sat with a
bowl of warm soup. As angry exclamations penetrated
our parent’s room next door over, we lived in our own world where
there was nothing beyond what the rain concealed. You gave
me a smile that I could see was fatigued, but
you continued to spoon-feed me anyway.
I wish that was our yesterday. But
instead, it was the day
I learned how easily golden-brown can turn
tar. You showed me that when you pushed
back the dinner chair and spoke with a coldness
I’d never heard you wear before. Sick of
blame trailing a burden
no fault of your own, I understand
or at least I hope do – but since when did I stop
being the one you could go to?
This is going to go up in flames you once said
and I’m still grasping at the golden brown ashes, crumbling
what once was through my fingertips.
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This piece addresses the reality of growing up and growing out of compassion as life becomes increasingly complicated.