I am an expert of love

I can tell you how it looks

I can tell you that it hurts

I can tell you how it seeps into unsuspecting hearts

Infecting you until you burst into flames

Many of my friends are in love 

And people are in love with them

I am in love as well

And sometimes I find myself wondering if there will ever be another to reciprocate my feelings

To put an end to my suffering

I am an expert of other's love

How they see it

How it hurts them

How it feels to be loved unconditionally 

I can only wish to feel enough from their stories as I watch through the window of my eyes

I envy 

I cry 

And I sit and I think, and I ask myself if I have been cursed with being undesirable to everyone I fall in love with