I believe I may assert that I am really in possession of deep and growing happiness, 

I must be for myself in the long run; the mild and generous are justly more selfish, and 

I have never been happier in my whole life. 

I hadn’t finished sorting it out, 

I remained naive and immature, still a kid, 

I seemed to shrink away, 

I turned and moved back into gloom, 

I was alone. 

I didn’t flip out, but,

I wasn’t myself, 

I felt hollow, 

I began to grow melancholy and restless, 

I collapsed events into a single time and place, 

I felt sort of guilty, like if I’d kept my mouth shut none of it would’ve ever happened, 

I didn’t flip out. 

I could not persuade myself to proceed, 

I was burning, 

I wished I was a girl again, 

I thought I was under, 

I was conscious, 

You were mistaken. 

I felt bad. 

I also felt a kind of giddiness, a secret joy, because I was alive. 

I remember her face, which is not a pretty face, and I remember feeling the burden of grief, 

I blamed her for taking away the person I had once been, and,

I blamed myself. 

But, I was tired, tired of being enclosed there.

I was born to join in love!

I am in love with the whole world and all that lives in its rainy arms, 

I saw time passing; it went so fast; rushing around me like water, I sat still in the center of it, 

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I could not look to either side, so much time went by it surprised me, 

I told myself stay calm, but I was wearying to escape, 

I could be brave, 

Here: the first time in my life, I felt just right. 

I was not so durable as stone…

So worse for me that I am strong.

But, there was a coldness in my heart that kept any tears frozen deep inside of me, 

Maybe it was rapids, or a swirl, for nothing is solid and permanent.

Nature made me lose the memory of bad hurt, 

And to tell the truth, I’ve never been happier in my whole life. Never. 

I was about to say I haven’t changed, but then I realized how much I had.