banana blonde and black hair

 feeling like falling

a heart exposed danger could be close but sensed without a care

Friends come with advice and their warnings 

only two hearts know  the right advances and feelings

grown feelings from similar pots 

every response and move made with an intentional meaning

heads and hearts hurting from the sharp and rough thoughts

glances stolen through her glasses i stare

a smile under a mask two faces blushing

even without any confirmation a desire to be there

time without sight or conversation feels as if it's  wasting 

smile bright and shining

promised You to watch the sunsets with you from a rooftop

in the car with you singing

listening to your heart beat praying this won't stop

I like too many people, because what if none of them like me back? At one point I was texting 20 girls at once and I told myself I liked all of them because I was afraid of being alone during that period of time. I was leading a lot of them on unintentionally by not specifying the parameters of our relationship and this hurt them. I then just ghosted 20 girls at once for a girl who up played her feelings for me early on and told me to then I was trapped with her receiving all the pain I gave to others but I met someone new and have to be my best for them. I cannot assume they will react the same way to things the last girl did because Lyss, the girl I'm trying to be my best for, is not a bad person and she wants to be good to me too.

You should only use shampoo once to twice a week. Your hair will start producing less oil and will become healthier, you will only have to condition 3 times a week and rinse your head with water everyday, this will get whatever sweat and dirt you have out. Your hair needs oil to be healthy and hydrated and two in one shampoo and conditioner is just putting sulfates over your hair and just covering it in unnatural things making it just slippery and loose. Your money will also be saved, the companies may say it's gentle enough to use every day but that's just to lure you into a false sense of security and then it strips your hair of oils and kills it.