Why do you never say what you mean?

I’m not mad, you say, fury clear on your face

I’m fine, you assure me, as you try to hide tears sliding down your cheeks 

I still love you, the empty promise you give me as I’m sent away

I’m just a kid, but I’m expected to understand your cryptic words

Are you disappointed or proud?

Are you happy or mad?

I just want to be loved by you like any other kid

You tell me not to worry, you sometimes say things you don’t mean when you’re angry

All this makes me wonder is if you ever mean anything when you say things

If you don’t mean it when you’re mad at me then do you mean it when you love me?

Why can you never say what you mean?