Sometimes it's small, seems so superficial

No battery on my phone, a forgotten homework, a burnt toast,

a little disappointment and then I remember

the sorrow I've been trying to avoid

Is being sadder easier when you are already sad?

My mind wandering down solitary streets

Following an elusive

rabbit

Maybe I'm a contemporary Alice

Falling through a hole, because I was running through the city

With a frightened wonder

A touch of relief in the void, as if I were suffocating

before the sigh lets me breathe

Wish I could scream, cry and laugh at the same time

Feelings in all their wildness

Memory of the past and perhaps the future

I try to think of impossible things to free myself

But I'm trapped by myself, the allure

of my thought, my emotions

I'm dizzy, it's not

Wonderland.