Bipolar Depression

A disorder associated with episodes of mood swings 

Ranging from depressive lows to manic highs

Are you Bipolar?

I think I am bipolar that is

See I only talk to myself because no one understands me 

My teeth are yellow

Hello world, would like it better if they were white like yours 

Perfect right… this world 

Yet I have bipolar depression

Yet I feel miserable 

Yet I'm feeling so tired but

Really falling apart 

Hey, heads or tails, I ask 

Heads you’re happy, tales you’re depressed 

That's the thing with bipolar depression

It's like the sides of a coin, heads or tails

Constantly flipping  

It makes you crazy

Like you want to purge your urges  

Like you feel shame 

Why do you constantly flip? 

Bipolar depression, happy or sad.. 

Why do I wanna travel the world one minute

and then scroll through social media in bed the next? 

Inside this place is warm 

But outside with these ocean eyes it starts to pour

I feel like I need an alibi to justify, somebody to blame

Hoping to ease the burden of having this mental illness 

Which is what some would call it 

I call it a disease 

Hey Bipolar depression, you are really driving me mad 

Hey bipolar depression, why do you stick right by me wherever I go 

No matter how many pills I may swallow

Still lurking around around the corner  

Over and over 

I'm tired so please let me go Bipolar depression 

Let me go 

I'm in pain and you put me here so let me go

Let me be free 

Even though no one is ever perfect 

Let me go 

Hey bipolar depression 

I hope you feel what I felt when you shattered my soul 

When you broke me 

But after you let me go I'll think of you 

As a chamber of reflection 

Even though you’re gone you were still apart of me 

Something that made me the person I am

I may not have liked you but in a way we were alike  

When everyone left me because they couldn’t handle my mood swings 

But you stayed with me 

You made me feel home in a world where people forget 

And move on without me and left me out in the cold 

you felt like home and like love 

Hey bipolar depression 

I’m barely holding on

On a thread I’m holding on hoping and waiting 

For my knight in shining armor to catch me from 

Falling  into such a deep despair of loneliness and sadness 

Hey bipolar depression you make me feel lonely 

Hey bipolar depression it is almost like a heartbreak anniversary 

You’re heartbreaking, you make it hard to love and to be loved 

You push away anyone who try to help you so that you don't hurt them 

Because when we are manic we can be destructive aren't we, can't we?  

Hey bipolar depression,  let's make a deal 

Heads or tails heads you let me go 

Heads I am free from this persecution of you

Tails you stay with me forever, drowning me 

Taking me down with you constantly hurting and in pain

Because you slowly take every piece of me 

Little pieces overtime so I wouldn't notice 

Now you made me into something I promised myself I wouldn't become 

Hey bipolar depression if you're wondering, I became you  

But at the same time, bipolar depression, you should never apologize for being you  

I'm getting tired now of constantly coin flipping. 

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin  

Oh simple things where have you gone 

Now because of you, bipolar depression, I walk alone , I suffer alone 

No one to help me because I'm so introverted  

I have a warm heart somewhere only we know and it's a  place where you are too 

because you are the center of pain 

And pain can only form dark places of anger and sadness and bitterness 

but it can be  stored in the heart 

Bipolar depression, you do realize you’re a remedy of a broken heart