I told you what was bothering me

All these years,

The pain,

The lying,

The demon living inside of me

That wants to claw its way from my body

The sparks of life inside were dying

As I sat there crying

Unable to save myself from drowning 

In the horror

The terror

The guilt 

And I don’t feel any better now.

I thought getting it off my chest 

Would save me from the guilt

But I can’t escape a heavy breast

That chains me in reality

And holds me to a feeling

I am so isolated in,

While the whole time

You sit there crying

“Mourning” a girl who never died

She’s right in front of your eyes

Only she is now a he

But he is still your child.

I’m still right here

Why won’t you lend

A simple ear

To understand the feeling

Of imprisonment I’ve had

In all my eighteen years

I’m sick and tired of lying

To make you feel better

When you’re the one 

Who says its fake

Who claims a lie

Mom and dad I try

To tell you what is wrong

Why I hated who I was

But you refused because

I was much too young.

At least, that's what you thought.

My friends all love you

And think you’re perfect

I love you too,

But you still did damage

And you taught me to hide

Instead of live in pride

Of who I know I am

And who I want to be

Mom and dad, please,

Will you listen to me?

Will you hear my voice

As I scream and cry

Begging for your love

My mind fried

The light fading 

from my once hopeful eyes

Begging for your time

I don’t want to say goodbye

Mom and dad please, 

Don’t let me die.