A never-ending loop. 

Hands shaking, pleading not to drop the heavy loads of life.

A cramping chest and constant migraine that will never get checked out. 

Countless hours spent trying to diagnose the thoughts in my head, 

to no avail.

A cry for help too quiet to be heard.

I raise my voice yet am scolded for yelling,

my words are brushed aside. 

But I’m still here.

In a room as cold as the tundra,

a tv blaring,

spiders whispering in the corners promising to crawl up my arms while I sleep,

a pitter-patter of kitten paws,

whiskers dancing across my skin as he lays on my chest,

a calming inhale,

a warm smile and echoing laughter.

A moment of silence, 

enjoy the peace and release the tension

cross my fingers,

say a prayer.

Beg for a new day.

The loop starts up again.