What is this abyss
This empty, incomprehensible void
This state of mind
devoid of all hope
With no light to shine through the darkness
Nobody to reassure me
that's it's all just a dream
But I know it's not a dream
because the silence-
The silence is so loud
Your missing voice is
the loudest thing that I hear
For I wish I could find the right words
I wish I could explain
the pain that's there
The sadness
the grief
the guilt
and the anger
I wish I could go one day
without crying
I wish I could go one day
without remembering
that you're gone
and you aren't coming back
Because that kind of shock-
it comes like a sudden flash of lightning
it leaves me more empty each time
But even if I feel empty
I am not depressed
I still smile at pretty things
Laugh when jokes are funny
I still talk to people
and enjoy fun days
But when I'm inside-
when I am alone
I remember there's something off-
something missing
And I fall into a sadness so overwhelming it engulfs me