I sit in my car 

listening to the radio and the beat of the music, 

the humming of the engine and the whistle of the air 

from the vents as my car rides down the road 

between the iridescent yellow 

line and the glowing white
line. I feel my mind drift off thinking about everything

but also nothing. I imagine the taste of the 

smoothie I drank this morning, 

the salad I had at lunch

but 

automatically my mind drifts to that day. 

that tuesday

mid afternoon

in january

when I got the call

braking my body in half. 

I drive

no words are said

no thoughts

no image is imagined in my mind

I just drive

solely following the way the

lines move along the dark asphalt

and the view of the 

road ahead with no intentions. 

I know that 

if I am in the comfort of these four doors 

with the sun shining around me 

the music humming in the background

the forefront of my mind always focused on him

I know I will be okay

there is no safer place