Waking up every morning reliving the same terror I closed my eyelids too last night,
Never knowing if this day is going to be worse than the other
Always wondering if the pain and terrors are ever going to end,

Trying to find the motivation to get out of bed
A thought comes to mind,
“Why can't i move, why can't i move my body”
Forgetting that sometimes my body is in physical and mental pain,

Taking a look at the time
Realizing school is in 20 minutes,
Sitting up to open the laptop
Anxiety taking a toll over the thoughts,

Reaching for the cellphone to try and distract the thoughts
Tapping on a breathing simulation for anxiety,
“Breathe in, hold 1 2 3, breathe out”
Calming down by the second,

Trying to fight the emotions to get through the day
Tears starting to fall down like a rainstorm,
Came to the conclusion just to turn the emotions off all at once
Not being able to feel a thing,

Trying to not to panic as i click on the button to join class
Living one breath at a time.