The smells of french toast and checkered vans would never feel the same.

The careless moments we spent at the cabin, always living life in the present.

You filled the air with joyous laughter, small chuckles bursting into violent howls- 

bringing comfort to those around you like a cool breeze on a hot summer’s day. 

I recall the times of bliss you brought, leaving my heart soaring through the clouds. 

Yearly, you put together an exciting bash for Halloween- those times I won’t ever forget.

Carving pumpkins in the backyard to simple chats, you knew how to make anything enjoyable.

The day I saw you for the last time broke me completely, leaving a gaping hole in my heart.

One that wouldn’t ever be filled, a small keepsake collecting dust as the days withered on. 

Like a stray cat, you wandered into my life just to be lost once again, utterly crushing me.

Crushing me as if a metric ton had been dropped on my head, over and over and over.

Sometimes I reflect on all those past times, just wishing I could speak to you once more. 

I just hope wherever you are, you are throwing halloween parties- doing it with a bright smile.