I will get up

One morning after the next

I won’t give up

Though when I look down

My heart's a mess

I shall weather this storm

Look at it in the eyes

Watch it fade

And dare care to stare back

At the sky 

To see the stars be remade

I am afraid

But that’s what makes me fearless

It hurts to hope

But I’ll force myself to hear this

I’ll get better

There’s some way to cure this

Mind numbing affliction

Self hating addiction

Where I feel so deplorable

Stuck with these thoughts so horrible

I’m not in a depression

I have depression 

Its not a stupid obsession

Its a symptom of repression

I plan what I can, try my best

But there’s something wrong

A hole in my chest

Can’t understand this feeling I feel

Just be happy

What’s the big deal

Stay focused on what’s real

Don’t steal from yourself 

Be brave

Seek help

I have felt such emptiness and seen such darkness

But I will not become it

I’m strong enough

To embark on this journey 

Escape

I’ve already done it

Life’s like a walk in the park

Don’t run it 

Don’t be afraid to not park

Be far from it

If the days blend and it seems

The blandness will never end

And you’re not sure how to send how you feel

To family friends 

Don’t choke up

Rise and ascend 

Don’t break just bend

Keep your head and eyes up

You can still mend

Write your thoughts down in a few words 

Sum it

Take the steps leave your mark

And when you can finally see the summit

Don’t stand still 

Feel paralyzed, freeze or flee from it

For he who dares to try and forgive and see

Must be prepared to live until it kills he

And she who dares shoulder the world on her back

Must be prepared for life to be unfair

Endure pain seething stares and feel some cracks

When the day is done and you feel like you are too

And the nights creep up and you’re not sure what to do

Always remember

If it feels the pain has won

There can never be no hope

Just look at the word hopeless

There can be less but never none.