I search my heart for the right words to say to you. 

how can I say you hurt me

and I don't want anything to do with you?

but in the same breath, I want everything to do with you 

you confuse me.

I knew it wasn't love, far from it.

But I can admit that I miss it,

I miss you. 

I thought we had a strong connection,

or maybe I was too attached to see. 

I knew it wasn't love,

but I loved the way you made me feel. 

When you made me laugh,

made me smile, 

made me angry,

made me annoyed, 

I miss everything about you.

I thought you would be the one to learn me. 

learn every aspect of my mind,

my body,

my soul.

you didn't do that.

instead you were a coward.

scared of commitment,

but strung me along.

I wanted you but I wanted myself more.

I picked me when you couldn't do so.

I was fine but now I'm left to pick up the pieces,

the pieces that you broke.

when all you could've done,

was left me alone.