long time, no talk huh
maybe i should've called
but don't worry i'm coming for a visit soon
i should have tried more
i didn't understand yet though
i'll be honest
i just wanted you to try harder
so, mom
where are we now
what do i belong to
hey mom
what do i do
because i turned out just like you
mom, mom
i told you i was planning to visit right
i'm not ready yet but i know it will be "soon"
yeah i know i ignored your texts
i was young and angry
and i thought i had good things coming next
see mom
i wasn't sure how the world worked then
but i learned
and i grew up
and i can feel what it was like to be you
mom i loved you
and it wasn't fair to leave
not then when it was me
and not now since it's you
mom
i am not scared to die
im not scared anymore
but i'm really kinda alone
with this
mommy im 16 now
crying in a crowded school
because i am too bitter to ask for help
they couldnt help you, right?
how could they help me
mom cant you see
i was just angry
and i needed to feel loved
i was little when i took care of us
and i know i was strong
but relying on me like that
mom that was wrong
i resented the way we are
but this is life
momma you died
and i'm here alive
i realized
i cant escape this
you left me on a losing team
im still a kid!
it's like you're asleep
and im locked in the house on my own
im lost and stuck again!
mom
i just want to talk to you
because it's been months
and everyday it hurts more
since may, what, the 24th?
im in tears in a classroom
and i wish i could come visit
not right now momma
but i promise
we'll talk soon