I gazed into my bathroom mirror

My eyes became fixed on their reflection like I was having a staring contest with myself

My pupils were black holes in the gray universe of my iris

I stared so long that my eyes went out of focus and I was staring at a blurred image of myself 

As though the mirror had steam on it from long, hot shower

Although it felt like I was looking at myself through a cloud, I didn’t look away

I stared and stared and stared until the mirror became a crystal ball and I saw into the future

I saw my sister getting married to her boyfriend

I saw my parents living in a house they built on the lake just like they always dreamed

I saw my Nephew all grown up and majoring in english because he’s always been an amazing writer

I saw everyone I knew living a happy life

But I did not see myself

I searched everywhere until I realized, one cannot predict their own future

The universe is the ultimate decider of your fate

All you can decide is how happy you are with what the universe gives you

I blinked and refocused my eyes on my reflection

I scanned my face up and down and left to right

I had an important decision to make

Will I be happy?