Click, Click, Click

Goes the clock

Every second till noon

Then ding

As the clock strikes 12 

You hear sirens mixed with horns

As your heels 

Click, Click, Click

On the side walk

While you are walking

You turn around and you focus

Ever so slightly on the

Click, Click, Click 

Of the girls heels behind you.

She gets closer and closer.

She stops you to say hi.

You say hi back and you see

You see your life flash before your eyes

As you hear the click click click

Of your watch as you walk into work

Then seconds later you look down again 

At your watch and you hear the 

click click click

Ding 

It’s time to leave

You get into the cab

And hear the meter

click click click

Of the cost going up cent by cent

And your bank balance 

click click clicking 

into a downward spiral of payments

As you ask her to marry you 

when you walk through the door

Of your apartment.

Click click click 

The clock screams as you are

Wait, wait, waiting

for her to walk down the aisle.

In her pearl white dress 

With the mesh veil covering her face.

You pull it over as the clock 

Click click clicks

All throughout the ceremony

As the after party begins and ends 

And your wife’s heels

Click click click

Back to the house

You wake up the next morning and

Click click click

In anticipation of the results

Your wife screams in joy and runs out of the bathroom

Embracing you in a hug

You both cry

She’s pregnant

You tell her you love her before the car 

Click click clicks 

To a start so you can leave for work

You come home that afternoon to take her to the doctors

And you hear the

click click click

Of the doctors heels walking up to the door

she click click clicks

All of the attachments on to show you the ultrasound

She leaves 

And brings back pictures of your baby boy

You both cry again

As your footsteps 

Click click click

In sync with each other 

As you walk out of the building

into the fresh summer air.

Click click click

It’s almost time

Your baby had almost arrived

Click click click 

You start your car 

Run back into the house

And help your wife to the car

Click click click 

You turn your radio up as to relax your wife

On the way to the hospital

Snip snip goes the doctor 

As he cuts the cord and

Click click clicks 

Over to the table to wipe your son off

And hand him to you

And you look into his eyes 

But you have to leave 

Click click click

Your car starts 

You have to get to work

You stayed too long at the hospital

Now your time is 

Click click clicking 

Away and you are becoming closer and closer

To being late

Click click click

The buttons go as you rush to punch in on time

You made it 

Your keys on your keyboard

Click click click

As you type the last part of your 5 page report 

And print it out

You 

Knock knock knock 

On your bosses door to hand him the paper

And tell him you are leaving

You get home at 830

You run up the stairs to goodnight to your son

He’s now 5

You missed the whole day 

The past 5 years 

except weekends

You are drained of energy 

So you 

click click click 

All the way to the bedroom

You wake up make your son breakfast 

Then click click click

your car to a start

The same thing everyday

Bing bing bing

You get a phone call

In the middle of the day

Your son has been hurt in a freak driving accident

They need you to come to the hospital right away

He might not survive

Your boss says you need to finish the report before you go

So you click click click the keys as fast as you can

You hand the report in and you race to the hospital

By the time you get there he’s already in surgery

They won’t let you see him

Click click click

The nurses heels go as she walks up to you

She tells you and your wife that your son is going to be okay

You have to go back to work the next morning to help pay for the medical bill

You get a call 

Mid afternoon

Saying he’s woken up

He’s asking where you are

You say just to tell him you are out

He says he knows what you are doing

He always knows

There’s only one place you are all day 

Everyday 

Every week

Every month

He’s out within a week

Click click clicking 

To school you only got to see him once that whole week

You asked him if he was okay 

And how he felt

He could barely speak to you

He’s lost 

He needs a father 

He never sees you 

All he hears is the 

Click click click

Of your shoes as you walk through the door

At 7 or 8 every night

You didn’t even get to see him 

Click click click

all the way to his first day of college 

Now you are

Click click clicking

to the retirement home 

And through the big white doors

You cry because 

You hear the 

Click click click

Every minute 

Every hour

Every day

Every year

Till the 

Click click click

Comes to a stop 

And in that moment you realize how fast it had all happened

As you sit there in silence 

And think

How horrible of a father I was

And then realize

You are now just a long

drawn out 

beep

on a heart rate monitor

Then they

Click click click 

You down into your grave