(what they say always goes)

wake up and pick out an outfit 
that won’t make you look like the walking mess you are (don’t stand out)

tell your parents you don’t want breakfast (can’t get fat) 
send your streaks that you don’t even like keeping
all the popular kids do it (have to fit in)

leave for school 
not too early though (don’t be eager to get to school)

Find a popular kid to talk too
(even though they are fake and talk about you

behind your back

even though they make you look

stupid 

even though they use to be your 

best friend

They. Broke.You.

they made you believe 

that you were actually special

that you actually matter 

well you don’t

that’s just reality)

no matter what they say 

it always goes

try to pay attention 
in class (don’t be the “dumb blonde”)

GET OUT OF SCHOOL 
leave the building that has shaped 

you

by the comments people have made

by the teachers telling you 

you can’t make it big 

by everyone telling you aren’t enough

then you start to believe they are right

try to do something 
with someone 

anyone (don’t let people think you hang out with your parents)

DO NOT QUESTION,
do what they do 

because they run the school

and if you aren’t liked by them 

you aren’t liked by anyone 

 go home and try 
try to not smell like alcohol 

try to seem drunk 

try not to break down

try not to show 

that what they say always goes 

tell your parents you are going to bed
go in the bathroom
take off all the makeup

until it’s just you 

well whatever you are

crawl in bed
look at that picture

of you with your best friend

when you were four

innocent

you loved hanging out with your parents

you were eager to get to school

you didn’t care what they thought of you

you were enough

cry silently 
because it’s all gone

your family fighting

school is a prison

you care about what they think

your best friend has a girlfriend

he isn’t “allowed” to hang out with you

go to sleep 
dream of a better day

where what they say

never goes