I don’t know what happened.

She used to be bubbly

And smiley. 

Tell them what’s been going on,

But be cheerful.

Positive.

Give them a call.

Do not text.

No tone over text.

What’s it like

To remember 

What it’s like?

I know my worth.

I’ve paid dearly

For every penny of it.

If you knew me in middle school, 

Just know,

I used to know her too. 

Dear past me,

Just enjoy

Where you are now.

What else

Was I

Supposed to do?

If only 

My dreams

Were real.

Is this really it?

I don’t want to believe 

That it is. 

Enjoy the moments

You feel like

Ripping their heads off.

Maybe I deserve it,

But it’s been

So incredibly long.