It’s been clawing at me for close to two years.

The decisions I made,

The decisions yet to be made.

I didn’t know the consequences of my choice.

If I could go back I would hold on until you let go.

I told you I was in your orbit.

You were perfect.

I haven’t been able to stop reminding myself of you.

It’s as if I cut off a piece of myself in this divorce.

Weeks, months, a whole year went by and I didn’t even try to reach out.

I didn’t truly apologize until now.

I thought when I apologized I would be able to move on.

I’m not so sure if I will be able.

I’m not sure if I am “moving on”.

You’ll always haunt my memories until I depart,

From this cruel world that birth me.

We were cut from two different cloths,

We live in two different worlds,

It probably wasn’t even meant to be.

I’m sorry.